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Tuesday, September 21, 2004

Tue, 21 Sep 2004 14:46:45 GMT

.. im crazy.. haha.. juz messn' up wif my hair.. n stuff.. [LoVe-Iz.dIz.foRevEr?]~wHaT.wILL.hApPenz.WeN.uR.eyEs.mEeT.aCrOsS.E.tAbLE?=tHe-BeAuTifUL-sILenCE.... its a very very tiring day for me.. couldnt imagine dat n'level is coming.. n i juz hate the feeling of dat.. ha! maths mock exam.. as if i gna pass or smeth.. for sure.. im nt gna pass diz subject.. MATHS.. damn.. stress stress stress... [oNE.mAn'S.mEaT.iS.anOthEr.maN's.poIsOn].... do i deserve diz kind of treatment?? lolx.. write dat for fun.. gosh.. tml-wednesday.. ooh.. another boring day huh?.. geez...

Monday, September 20, 2004

Mon, 20 Sep 2004 14:07:51 GMT

.. well itz been like 2 dayz.. nv wrote anyth.. any crapz.. n wadevax shetz.. its been like a wk or so.. damn it.. i missed him sooo much.. wadevaz.. diz iz life i guess.. haha.. i was talkn to my fren.. n wondering hw was it like to a les n evryth doesnt mean dat i'll be one of them.. geez.. juz wondering ya noe.. well i gna fail my maths.. as i expected i gna fail for sure.. hmmm.. wad did i do lst saturday?. let me think.. oh i rented a dvd,, kill bill2 n dirty dancing2.. itz cool.. didnt wnt out dat day coz i hve no money n all dat.. oh crapx.. sunday?.. hmm.. went to orchard wif my family.. then went to parkway n spend sme of my dad's cash (again)..went shopping.. well.. i still hve e urge to buy dat guess bag.. i gna buy dat for sure.. one of diz days.. lolx.. ooooh.. i wana sleep n go to my dreamland.. n foreva stay der wif my prince.. lolx.. but i met him already.. but geez.. wad 2 do hiz in e other side of diz freakn world.. new york huh?.. ok wadevax...[bReaK.e.RuLez.FiNd.yA.fReEdom.LiVe.Ur.LifE][hEd0NisT][mIsSiNG.U.dRivEs.mE.cRAzY]

Friday, September 17, 2004

Fri, 17 Sep 2004 14:34:27 GMT

[another.boring.day+smeth.happened+crapx+another.day.dat.i couldnt.imagine.nt.talking.to.him+another.day.dat.i.felt lonely+another.day.dat.i.realised.dat.i.need.him.mre.n.mre+im. missing.him.too.much+another.day....]
~here we go.. went to sch.. ya noe e same old feeling.. friday blues.. lazy.. damn freaking tired n lazy..well [hedonist] n sme of our frenz wer like expectn dat e sch wd noe smeth abt wad we've dne yesterdat but ya i guess we shouldnt bother abt e rewards n stuff like dat.. crazy little gurl..durn' pe sme of my classmates/frenz went to play badminton n bball.. i hve e mood 2 play volleyball.. but then nobdy wanz to play wif me coz sme of e guyz wnt to play n itz scared me when they hit it damn hard.. so i wnt to play by myslf.. tossing e ball in e air n like hitting it n stuff til i hurt my ryt hand.. *ouch.. painful.. it was swollen.. n all dat.. forget it.. ne way..went to do diz NE test for nlevel certificate.. damn i hve no idea abt spore n i hve do diz but its cool n fun nman eh..wahaha.. nuts!!..i didnt noe dat ya hve to build places to gain scores.. haha.. weird gurl.. i was bored yesterday n i added lotz of pnoy students studyn here.. dat was fast when they juz accept me juz like dat haha.. cool.. meet sme crazy ppl n frenly peepz..gosh im tired.. lolx...

Thursday, September 16, 2004

Thu, 16 Sep 2004 14:06:58 GMT

[diz.iz.the.time.to.move.on.and.im.happy.now] ..
..so damn happy.. .. so here we go.. lolx..
+~biatch..asshole..crapx..bullshetz..~sense..dynamic..cool..laughter+
well diz morning.. talked abt e crazy ppl in e block.. lolx.. ..e group [hedonist] talked abt the future:goals,aims,life blah blah blah ..crapx but it make sense ya see.. well we also talked abt JC peepz.. [e cuties to e popular onez.. to e abortion rate (lolx).. to e pretty gurls.. to e system.. to e uniform.. e important of our dreams in life.. e crazy stuff we normally do.. comments abt e JC's guyz n gurls.. well im moving on.. n datz gd izinit??.. 100% very very good.. lol.. well we also realized to forget sme stuff-disgusting stuff... n ofcoz e objective n perspective..where to go after sec sch... during recess time.. gosh.. talked abt family.. share some secrets.. family secrets.. history n life of [hedonist].. lol.. we were talkn abt our plans after n'level.. haha crazy but its fun.. we wana go to places like genting n stuff like dat.. laugh! laugh! laugh!.. its like we cant stop laughn'.. all day long.. gosh.. wish' dat evryday wd be like diz.. [ppl outside [hedonist] or doz ppl hu dun really bother abt us could say wadeva they wan coz u dun really noe wadz goin on inside e [hedonist] world.. ya noe.. its full of crapx..jokez.. so beware.. juz f*ck off]... if ya guilty.. ooopz.. y bother abt ppl like us?.. wan to waste time shootn us huh?.. juz study n dun waste ur precious time on us... ooooh.. am i shooting at anyone?? no ryt?.. ya the answer for dat "no one is mad/angry at us".. juz for fun.. write dat.. dun think too much!.. hmm.. [but then i duno].. dun care.. lolx.. [went to hougang+eat lunch+walk+idle+went to popular+smeth happened+my frenz fnd a wallet belong to diz X.M gurl..+we go insane+we go crazy+we go gaga over diz matter+laugh+laugh+laugh+SK wan to hve adventure+wadeva u called it+lol+go ask around (dos ppl 4rm X.M) if they noe e owner of e wallet+lol+smeth happened to esther+damn funny+crazy+juz cant stop lauging+wana noe wad happened to her+err...beta dun say+...lol+we r havn second tot n all dat of we wan to go to X.M n stuff like dat to return e wallet+in e end ofcoz we bother to go X.M sch to return it+loads of FUN+really noe e meaning of FUN+credits n stuff+crazy ppl=me..esther..vivian..lisun..SK.. lolx..]..went compass to do sme work.. [HEDONIST]-->C.G.K.E.J.H-->living life to e fullest.. nOe e meanIng of FUN!!!... end of story.. mwah!... +[aLwAys.HeLp$.if.dErS.an.AnGeL.WaTchIng.oVer.U][LiKe.My.BaBy]+<--[hEd0nIsT]-->(rOcKx)~+MiSsIng.My.baBy+

Wednesday, September 15, 2004

Wed, 15 Sep 2004 15:47:33 GMT

.. im sick n tired of all e crapx n bullshetz..abt love,studies n life.. .. ppl could go gaga.. could go nuts.. could go insane.. could go crazy coz of diz so called love.. damn.. .. hate it.. hate the feeling.. broken hartz n all doz crapx.. crying coz of diz mess.. thinking to commit suicide coz of diz crap.. worth it? i dun think so.. well wad can we do.. its damn easy to tell diz or advise a fren dat hey u shouldnt do dat blah blah blah.. but once u put ya slf in dat hart borken situation u would do exactly e same thing.. i guess so.. no idea.. lolx.. i also have no idea wtf im talkn abt.. well all busllshetz i guess.. +[iTz.DrIvIng.mE.cRAzY.cOZ.iM.mIsSiNg.My.BAby]+[i.WuN.gO.aRoUnd.LoOkN.4.E.rYt.oNe.cOz.i.fOunD.mY.bAby].. ny new day.. new life.. new beginning.. new sorrow?.. new pain?.. new...???.. y do ppl fall in love?.. stupid thing to say but i really wonder y.. fall.in.love+happy+sad+fights+breakup+sorrows+pain=death... lolx.. crazy little gurl.. biatch_22

Monday, September 13, 2004

Mon, 13 Sep 2004 13:11:10 GMT

~..i dun wana say much abt 2dae.. all my stupid actions.. n my childish behaviour.. i dun wan remember doz crapx.. lolx.. well.. i juz cant believe dat DS is goin dz wednesday.. damn datz frekn fast.. well 2dae was... my worst day.. dats all.. gt nothing to say.. ~ crazy.....last words... uhuh??...
~ya figured dat u would quit it juz one night..ya musta been outta ya mind guess its too late to turn back now..games rules.. no crap no cut.. but even superman couldnt turn ur love down..wad abt u? u tell me all the freaky things u are.. i need u to noe if we mke it through.. but damn.. we didnt.. our love will grow stronger n im willing 2 tell u evrything..but i tld ya too much but can u handle e truth dat wer already over..m already in dat boundary of moving on.. i never chose diz path.. instead u lead me to.. now dat i realize dat ya letting me go is a ryt decision.. but damn ur nt the only one gna leave me.. some ppl over here gna leave for new york but
wad to do.. he says he love me.. but n he promised to come back.. i dun even noe if i gna believe.. coz promises r meant to be broken..ouch*now dat dream of bein wif u iz already over..
now my new chapter.. my new experience..will it ended up like diz too?.. he says he gna fulfil hiz duty n evrything.. i hope hiz nt juz bitting my ass.. coz i really wana change.. a playa to a serious.. pimpin to all e bitches.. *u aint feel like diz if ya nt a hiphop*~wTf Im tAlkN aBt....LolX...

Sunday, September 12, 2004

Sun, 12 Sep 2004 04:32:04 GMT

i tot im too numb to feel anything.. damn i was wrong... im still in midst of confusion when im talking to him.. still cant decide wad to do.. i talked to him.. n he started to talked abt our problems.. n stuff like dat.. i juz find myslf.. in diz illusion dat evrything would be over.. evrything would juz end juz like dat.. i found myslf crying.. a silent cry.. tear dropping.. a sudden drop n i close my eyes.. iz diz e guy i've been wif?.. telln me dat he wan to see me happy.. n he juz wana to let go coz he thinks dat i would be happy wif doz guys.. ok i get his point.. i really understand.. all diz while im juz hurting him.. gosh.. but i couldnt believe dat he choose to give up than fight for me.. he choose to give up rather than to fight for his feelings.. i tot he would fight.. i tot.. nvm.. it doesnt matter.. coz its all over.. i only hve diz to say.. though i hve the urge of breaking up n all dat coz of wad my frenz advice me to do.. but i dun choose to give up.. i tried n tried.. i fight for my feelings for him.. coz i really care.. n i wana chnge.. but i guess.. its too late now.. my frenz asked me to gve him a second chance.. i dun believe in diz second chance thingy.. i noe he mke a rash decision.. but datz his decision.. nobody can turn bck the time.. no one can ever do dat.. i dun believe coz: 1.we goin to see the same old problem..2.its already over.. ok fine.. things myt change but do u think u goin to involve ur hart if u already been hurt for like 100times....but sme frenz asked me ya dun gve hm a chance.. wadeva.. ppl myt think dat his making things easy for me by letting me go.. the answer is NO..i really care for him but things ended up like diz n its too late now.. i was horrified when i looked at myslf lst nyt.. i saw my old me.. dat gurl hu keep on crying coz of love-relationship.. ha.. i knew it.. i tot i was strong.. i tot.. well i guess.. i hve to cmebck to reality.. how i wished dat sme scientist wd invent some machine dat would able u to forget evrything.. i mean ur sad moments in lyf.. gurls can forgive but cant forget.. but i juz wan dat person to noe dat i'll always be here for u when u need me.. nothing will change between us.. i hope.. i really hope..

Saturday, September 11, 2004

Sat, 11 Sep 2004 12:48:41 GMT

~++tHiNkiNg VerY vEry HaRD...wAnA juMp dOWn nOw.. Gosh..++~.. i wke up diz morning and evrything seems alryt.. it seems dat ok im ready to try diz things wif him.. but ofcoz i still hve sme doubts.. so i went online.. check my frenzter n so on.. then i was talking to my gurlfrenz n my god bro.. i wana talk abt diz poblem of mine.. i wana clear my mind and my doubts.. so i talked to them.. n started to asked questions dat r ya ready to be inlove wif diz type of guy.. r ya ready to gve up evrything and the chances bck home coz of diz guy.. do ya hve e same topic.. same interest.. blah blah blah.. i couldnt find any answer and again im confused again..~recallin' wad happen:when i did dat to him.. i liked it.. it felt gd.. felt nice.. but i would admit dat derz no connection.. i dun feel anything like wow im in heaven dat type.. gosh.. i felt bad.. i felt terrible.. when my gurlfren wrote my testi.. it juz open my mind.. my gosh.. iz diz ryt? two opposite type of ppl tryn to work things out.. even if my hart says smeth is wrong..~anyway.. i talked to dat cute guy from frenzter.. ended up his a nyc guy though his a gangsta.. lolx.. well he is cute.. makulits.. demanding.. but hey his soooo gwapo.. haha.. im still having doubts abt diz stuff.. still having difficulties if i shd let go or nt.. i remembered one of my frenz told me diz.. 'if ur having confusions and stuff like dat dun claim dat ur inlove'.. eeew... such problems.. naka2tawa kc sbe ni jen hiwalayan ko na daw.. wadeva gurl.. lolx.. i read his blog.. gosh.. im speechless.. his really into me.. but do i feel e chemistry im nt sure at all.. felt bad.. im evil.. my gosh.. feel like crying... then diz guy came.. gosh.. he didnt chnge at all.. but ya i knda shoot him abt dz gurl dat he was rumoured dat they wer a thing or wad.. ended up she's juz a fren.. when i told him dat #09 n me still togetha he felt bad but this is wad he told me "dats okiez.. i rather wait for u n take diz things slowly than rush things.. u noe y i rather do diz? simple.. coz if ya rush things it will juz ended up so fast.. if ya tke things slowly we gna enjoy our time n we wun realize dat diz is it".. it struck me when he said dat... its really show how mature he is when it comes to relationship.. ya i agree to dat.. tke things slowly is beta than rushing diz kind of stuff... hiz another sweet guy.. at 6pm he msg me in ym... telln me dat he hve to cme bck an hour later coz his having his nyt class.. i was in the shower like for an hour or so.. so when i cme out he was like buzzing me.. haha.. sorry for dat.. fnd out dat hz in dz mall n it gna close at dat hour.. n he juz cme bck juz for me... gosh.. he chnged to a nearby cafe juz to talked to me.. sweet.. lolx.. but he told me im bolera daw.. so hiz bolero.. im glad.. dat i hve dz knd of fren.. lolx.. well he promised me dat once i go bck he will be my escort.. body guard.. lolx.. haha.. funny guy.. but then he assured me na gi2mick kme once umuwi me.. guess lookn forward to my gimmick days.. bar hopping.. LIBIS.. n makati... hahaha... ~am i ready for dz stuff??

Friday, September 10, 2004

Fri, 10 Sep 2004 16:34:58 GMT

++~be The BeLlE Of The BALL.. waDz wif cUte PinOy GuyZ?..[siMplE QueSTIon_sImplE anSwer:]-->chArisMA!!![hIpHoPgUyz.HOtTieS!]++.. well im nt asking ya to chnge to dz hiphop gangsta/ hiphop/ jammn to e groove.. im nt asking ya to chnge coz of me.. gosh.. ok im into hiphop guys.. i duno.. i guess.. derz someth abt them.. n mayb coz i really lyk hiphop.. wadeva.... gosh.. my dad saw the flower n he saw my desktop bckground.. a pic of dz cute guy.. haha.. n my dad tot dat hz my guy.. lolx.. n tellin me things dat for sure dat hiz pinoy.. n blah blah blah.. when my sis saw it.. she tld me e sme thing.. lolx.. when my mom saw it.. well.. she was like.. wow hiz cute!.. ok ok.. .. i didnt bother to explain e whole situation coz for sure they wd ask me to brng dat guy here.. oh please.. lolx.. well it was a boring day for me..hmmm... yawnz.. tired wif all e shet in my lyf... i gna sleep.. *zzzZZZzzz*.. wondering wad will happen tml.. lolx..
***this is why I always say I love YOU....

IF I KNEW

If I knew it would be the last time
That I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly
and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.

If I knew it would be the last time
that I see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss
and call you back for one more.

If I knew it would be the last time
I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would video tape each action and word,
so I could play them back day after day.

If I knew it would be the last time,
I could spare an extra minute
to stop and say "I love you,"
instead of assuming you would KNOW I do.

If I knew it would be the last time
I would be there to share your day,
Well I'm sure you'll have so many more,
so I can let just this one slip away.

For surely there's always tomorrow
to make up for an oversight,
and we always get a second chance
to make everything just right.

There will always be another day
to say "I love you,"
And certainly there's another chance
to say our "Anything I can do?"

But just in case I might be wrong,
and today is all I get,
I'd like to say how much I love you
and I hope we never forget.

Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,
young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance
you get to hold your loved one tight.

So if you're waiting for tomorrow,
why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes,
you'll surely regret the day,

That you didn't take that extra time
for a smile, a hug, or a kiss
and you were too busy to grant someone,
what turned out to be their one last wish.

So hold your loved ones close today,
and whisper in their ear,
Tell them how much you love them
and that you'll always hold them dear

Take time to say "I'm sorry,"
"Please forgive me," "Thank you," or "It's okay."
And if tomorrow never comes,
you'll have no regrets about today.***

Friday, September 10, 2004

Fri, 10 Sep 2004 02:20:41 GMT

~++this StoRy bEgInS wiTh caRRot cAkE++~.. i remembered dat story again.. which means to say i remembered.. ok forget it.. yupz ya my guy bestfren but where in the hell r ya??.. lolx.. ok kidding.. anyway.. i watched cinderella story 2dae wif my 'barkada'.. i was so exhausted at first, no more available ticket for us.. and we hve to walk from PS to cine.. well we usually do dat.. lolx..finally derz a slot for the 9of us.. datz nt the complete set of the barkada n wer havn difficulties finding a place for us.. gosh.. lolx.. the movie starts at 740.. hell we care anyway.. as long as we noe datz a nice show.. juz grab dat opportunity.. so we hangout at burger king then saw olga n her brotherz.. lolx.. after dat went to heeren.. tke photos.. n went to HMV to listen to sme songs.. i wasnt aware dat they having diz talk abt wei coming to surprised me.. anyway so der ya go.. itz time for the movie.. its really sweet.. how i wish dat im hillary duff or smeth.. well i guess evry gurl watching dat movie wished dat der cinderella n der prince charming is chad michael murray.. gosh.. lolx.. hu doesnt want dat??.. evry gal is hoping n wishing.. but then cme bck 2 reality!!.. i would be honest (i tld him anyway).. i wasnt really thinking abt him when i was watching dat show.. i was thinking of C.M.M.,, lolx,, it was 9+ n i was planning to go home n get sme rest.. but it seems dat mst of them wana eat so der ya go.. i joined them... evryth seems so perfect.. like ok wer gna eat now n stuff like dat.. n then he came.. gosh.. he gve me a surprised.. he was holding diz flower wif a blue bear n it.. n he hve to cme dwn at dat hour juz for me?.. my golly.. it was really sweet of him.. really sweet..lolx.. so der ya go.. he snd me home.. as usual.. lolx.. my gurlfrenz told me dat im a control freak.. am i??.. ooopz.. didnt noe dat.. but hey hz a gentlemen n a sweet guy.. but then.. it juz couldnt get out of my mind.. itz really a memorable evening for me.. specially for him.. lolx.. oh well.. itz a normal thing to do for me.. but hell care.. ++tHinGz HappEn BeCaUSe theY're sUppOSed to++.. guess AJM was ryt.. lolx..